A Sleepy Girl's Thoughts on Life

I'm sick of life

This happens to me sometimes. I'll be cruising along just fine and then all of a sudden I hit a rough spot.

I am feeling so unmotivated. Nothing excites me. I have nothing to look forward to. The things that should make me happy...don't. To put it simply, I just don't care enough to care. About anything...

School should be fun, but it's stressing me out right now.

I haven't woken up on time or slept straight through the night in two weeks. I'm always tired.

Work is just a place I go to be. My strong dis-interest in it is draining me.

I don't bother making my hair look nice anymore. It's been many days since I straightened it or even wore it down.

I don't see my friends. In fact, I am barely communicating with them.

I've stopped taking my cell phone with me everywhere I go. Because honestly, no one ever calls.

Food has lost its allure. I haven't been indulging in anything I like, and my appetite has definitely diminished (good because maybe I'll lose weight, but bad because...you know, I love food, normally).

And here's the really scary part: I don't even care about my TV shows. There is not one single show that I must watch...and if I miss it, so what?

I don't know why I get this way sometimes. Obviously, with my dad getting sick, it's been a tough year. But there's more to this than that. I've seen this pattern before.

Sometimes I just get sad, and there's nothing anyone can do about it but me. Since I've never been a positive thinker, I must content myself with the fact that this too shall pass.

You know that sinking feeling you get when you hit a big pothole in your car and it jerks and makes a horrible sound? Well, I just fell in the big pothole of life. And it's really jagged and ugly and it totally just threw my alignment all to hell.

posted by Sleepy Girl @ 11:23 AM