A Sleepy Girl's Thoughts on Life

If you call

I will answer.

It's that simple, isn't it?

I think the first sign of a doomed relationship must be when you choose not to answer the phone.

Oh, he calls too much...why is he bothering me again?

I'm too busy right now.

I don't feel like hearing his voice.

He's probably drunk and I don't wanna deal with it.

I'm mad at him so I will make him suffer by ignoring him.

There are so many reasons not to answer, not to be there for him.

And yet if it's right, none of those should matter. Perhaps they shouldn't even exist.

All of the above reasons have gone through my head over the years. And I've let them dictate my actions. Yet I never realized that every time I had one of those thoughts, I poisoned my relationship.

Because a relationship shouldn't be about playing mind games.

It shouldn't be about avoiding the other person.

It shouldn't be about thinking of reasons.

There are a lot of reasons not to answer. But there should only be ONE reason to pick up the phone, and it should trump all others.

Once that's gone, there really isn't much left to talk about, is there?

I think
it's getting to the point where I can be myself again.
It's getting to the point where we have almost made amends.
I think
it's the getting to the point that's the hardest part

If you call
I will answer and if you fall
I will pick you up
and if you court this disaster I'll point you home
I'll point you home

You think,
I only think about you when we're both in the same room
I'm only here to witness the remains of loving you
You think,
we're here to play a game of who loves more than who

You think,
It's only fair to do what's best for you and you alone
You think,
It's only fair to do the same thing for me when you're not home
I think,
It's time to make this something that's more than only fair.

I'm warning you, don't ever do
those crazy messed up things you do.
If you ever do, I promise you
I'll be the first to crucify you
it's time to prove that you came back here to rebuild?
Rebuild...Rebuild

The Barenaked Ladies had this shit figured out way before I did.

posted by Sleepy Girl @ 10:43 AM